Social Hazard

Sometimes I hate being different. Yea there are some good things to being different. I stay out of trouble for the most part, but it hinders my social abilities. I have more of an old soul, and do not really fit in with people my age. I don't see the point in a lot of things like drugs and partying. I have never been one to drink and one to party. I don't even like to go to parties just to socialize, because I just do not like the whole environment period. I don't have anything against people who party and drink; it's just not my thing. I find myself without too many friends and having lonely afternoons and nights during the week. On the weekends I spend my time with my boyfriend, since that is the only time I get to see him. He has changed a lot within the past couple of years though. Whenever he wants to go to a party, or go over to a friend's house with his roommate and other friends, he always offers me to come, but I never go. I know what kind of stuff goes on, and it's just not for me. Me being different in this way makes me feel like an outcast a lot. I feel like I am a teenager with an adult's mind. I see kids doing stupid things, that in these days is considered fun, and think to myself how could they be that irresponsible. And now that I am in college and this is supposed to be the time to "live it up", I feel like I am going in the opposite direction. I find myself more concerned with my work to have time to do anything irresponsible. I guess that is an upside to my being different. I realize what responsibilities I have more than others my age, and do not let foolishness get in the way. I have never been one to socialize though. My brother got the social gene from my mother, which totally skipped me. I got my dad's conservativeness. He likes to just stick to himself, and I got that from him. A lot of people mistake me for being stuck up because I do not talk much, but really I would love to talk to everybody and make friends with them. I just haven't quite figured out how to get past my social inabilities.